3 Sept 2009 – the perfect blog
September 4, 2009 § 4 Comments
1. There is no perfect blog, but if there were, it might be something like hesitant scribe. This was Lisa Ratcliffe’s blog. Lisa was a woman dying of cancer and still trying to raise a family, still trying to write a novel, and putting all of it out there for whoever wanted to read it.
2. This from one of the last blog posts she’d ever write:
Why feel such a need to commit to paper these thoughts, these micro-flashes of electrical energy in a brain that now contains a tumorous mass which threatens to undermine whole heaps (now that scares me senseless ! ) of mental faculty, sending Lisa to the bin.
( So then I breathe really deep – and remind myself that The Universe has never let me down yet and never will , so it’s okay. I’ll get out everything I need to – we’ll see, honest. Have faith. Cool calming, reassuring faith : it will be okay ).
Such a lot to say; please forgive me if I get sidetracked a bit !! )
Oh, yes ! So why write ?!
Is it like those women of old – wanting to preserve for posterity, a record of what my life was like for my girls – so they may be strong , and forceful , and strike a balance between their femininity ( they are both sooo beautiful ! ) and their strength (we all have quite a mannish side too I think ) , so they can see – This is perhaps the reason for ALL my writing ha ! ha ! – that in life, things happen, and we’re all on a road going along, totally blind, and things happen and we think – Oh God ! This is so bad I cannot live with it/through it/past it/etc. It’s the end of my road – or even just wanting it to be so, but stay on the road. . .
3. Sometimes I can’t believe the things I get upset at.
4. On Lisa’ blog there’s a clock that’s still running.